Mid Life Evaluation (11/25/15)

(So clear back in August last year I said I was going to post my Facebook Posts on my Blog and while I had the very best of intentions, I was feeling super accomplished to just post it on Facebook even. I decided to go back, copy, and paste some past insights for those not on Facebook. Here we go.......)
Wow, my day went by so fast. I learned so much today. I have been observing myself in a process. Let's see...just a quick setup. I just turned 40 this year and have lived in my home for over 10 years. Something about this and where I am in my life has sure has stirred up a lot of feelings and emotion about where I am at. I have thankfully done a lot of magnificent transforming in the last few years especially. All of these things coming together has come to the forefront in a BIG way. When your insides change, your outside world wants to reflect it. When I felt down, things at my home would go into disarray, to reflect that . As I have cleaned up some important things on my insides, my home has become so much easier to clean and keep up. I am not being weighed down by so much junk inside that scrambles my brain. My dilemma is that my outside world is still in someone elses old condition. The same floors, the same kitchen, the same wallpaper as when we moved in, even the same holes in the wall from the previous owners!!....it feels very uneasy to me now. I think that I have not been caring about myself the way that I should. So much that I have considered moving to change this feeling. In the process, I have been doing so many things that I wish I would have done when we first moved in!! The scripture that keeps running through my head is to "Love thy neighbor as thyself" but how does that work if I am not loving myself?? I feel uneasy in an increasingly yucky way. I think that it is time for a change. One that will reflect what my insides are telling me. The grateful part is, I can SEE on the outside that I am changing, for the better. My sincere hope and prayer is that you can SEE that in your life too...